My journey with Christ

Last monday in BSF we learnt about Noah and the flood. I got so much out of it but today I really want to share about this specific verse " God remembered Noah " - Gen 8:1. One of the questions in the homework was what does it mean that God remembered Noah? Well, at first I didnt have the answer to that. I was thinking to myself, does that mean that God ever forget about Noah? that is so mean haha but that was what my initial perception until God gave me a revelation God remembered Noah means that He takes care of him, He loves and He provides for him. God reminds me that He is not like human where we forgets alot. We forget to pray for others even though 2 hrs before that we just promise to pray for them. We forget to thank God when we safely reach our destination. We forget to do this and that. Basically, we are very forgetful. The only thing that God forgets is our sins when Jesus died on the cross for us. God also tells me that just as He never forgets Noah, He also nev...

For the past two days, i have been having intense panic attack. I felt so scared and fearful for some reasons and the reason was ridiculous.. i was scared of having driving test. I know it sounds silly but it's true. I couldnt sleep on sunday night and even when i slept, I dreamt of the test which i failed. It affected my mood on monday and the whole day my mood was just gloomy. It only got better after I went to bible study fellowship and as i talked to some people. I even had to sit up, push up, do some exercise to let myself be tired and drank a cup of chamomile tea on monday night.. yet the dreams came back. There was no peace at all and i couldnt concentrate on prayer or bible study. It is such as irony because my oikos member had similar problem and i asked her to pray and read the bible. Yet when its my turn, i failed. The reason behind the panic was i guess i know that i cant fail the test. i can only use my overseas license up to 26 april this month and i would not be ab...

Yesterday was a hard day for me Reason behind is I had to face insult from my fellow worker this worker keeps on triggering anger in me and I have to restraint my anger so many times she would say something like: So your sister is also a Christian? And i say : yes She : you are so bad.  How can you do that? ( she was saying this as if im forcing my sister to believe in the same faith) me : i didnt force her (up to this point my steam was already at the top of my head and i almost exploded. I had to look away and did sth else for not getting angry) She : you must have been brain washed Me : i wouldnt call that brain washed. She did apoligize for using harsh words. but she was saying it half heartedly and laughing so it really pissed me off I tried to avoid her for the whole day cos the words just pierced my heart. But the Holy Spirit kept on reminding me to love my neighbour and i was really in agony... like literally, my flesh was asking me to do one thing and my heart ...

This year in BSF we are studying Genesis. I have never thought that the basis of everything can be found in Genesis. Genesis has been like a story book for me and doesnt really carry deep meaning other than telling us that we are all Adam's descendants and thus we are sinners. However.. only 3 chapters of study, my eyes are opened to the things that I never see and think before. today.. God finally brought me to a realisation that I am like Eve in so many ways. The devil uses me like how he used Eve. And the silly thing is I fall into His trap even though Eve's example should have been a warning for me. There are 2 main steps that the Satan tempted Eve. First, he caused Eve to think that God has kept something good away from her. Eve was allowed to eat from any fruit from the trees in Eden but not the tree of evil and life. The devil makes her think that God is bad bcos He doesnt want Eve to eat from that tree. he obviously stir the focus of Eve from all the blessings that...

I know i have posted how blessed i am this birthday but i think i forgot the most important thing of all That is the friendship and family i have I am not born to be a sociable person. In fact it has been my struggle since i came to melbourne. one of the main reasons was language problem which i tried my best by talking in english and improve my indo language. i dont have many friends to begin with... i only have 4 best friends back in school... but this year God really answers my prayer. He bless me so much in this area. Firstly it is my church friends 1.prayer warriors tonight, i had 3 of my best mates organised a birthday dinner with me. They brought me to this korean restaurant called Gami. They bought me a customised cake, orange colour!! Haha.. and they bought me a blender (since i just moved house)..we had great night. We talk about anything. this moment is irreplaceable. This moment is unforgetable. This moment is bliss. Thank u girlssssss... Of cos im also blessed by the...

Have you ever thought why God allow bad things happen in your life? Or maybe you maybe wondering, you have done all you can to follow His command, yet you find yourself caught in bad situations or worse, God let you fall even if He has the power to change it. Why would He do that? So today I was doing some cleaning of my yard. As you may have known,i have just moved to my newly mortgaged house. I dont have a big garden, its only about 3x4 m garden. im neither a typical nature lover nor flowers lover, thats why since i moved, my garden has been left as it is. I have moved for about 1.5 weeks now and guess what, weeds was growing along with flowers ( the seeds were sown by the builder).  After work, i couldnt stand it anymore, so i ended up pulling out all the weeds. As i was pulling iT, an inspiration comes into my mind and this is why im sharing it now. we are like the garden. we were born as sinners. ROMANS 3:23 says that for all have fallen short of glory of God. In us, there a...

Words cannot express how blessed I am up to this day Things have changed... Last year .. i didnt have a mortgage I didnt have my own room I was not a bible study group leader I was not a cell group leader I didnt have a car I was not this fat Haha.. still there are many others that was not there last year I am trully humbled by God's amazing plan in my life He trully gives me the desire of my heart beyond my expectation He trully gives what I needed and beyond He sustains me through this ups and downs Yes.. i am very blessed indeed It is a little bit weird to hear people wishing me happy birthday, bcos im so used to wishing that to others, yet I am very thankful to my friends who actually remember my birthday (without looking at facebook calendar of cos) haha.. Yes.. another blessing.. that is to have many many true friends. Not just bcos they remember my birthday but also bcos they were there when I needed them, to share my sadness and happiness I pray that in thi...