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How I encounter Jesus in my life

I broke up with my first ex boyfriend when I was in high school 7 years ago. The reason he broke up with me was because he gets more serious in his faith in Jesus. He knew that he should not be on the same yoke with unbeliever like me. Back then I was a Buddhist. I grew bitter and angry asking why so serious about religion? religion is there to guide us to be a good person, but not there to hinder us with someone that we like. It just doesnt make sense to me at all. i got really really devastated and traumatic because at that time I really did give my heart to him and was thinking how could he be so thoughtless and just dump me like that? after all we have been through? It just further emphasized what
my dad thinks about christians, they are selfish people.Okay so afterthe break up, i was so sad up to the point that i asked my mom to send me to study overseas. i know this sounds so desperate, ridiculous and you might think, what? You were just 17 at that time! Well, the truth is thats…

What should I do?

Hi God.. im really sad at the moment. not because i do something wrong like what i usually did but sad looking at people around me. Grace, who brought me to Christ told me today that she is dating a hot pHd student 27 yrs old who is not a Christian. How could she forgot u God? She was the one who was so passionate about God. through her i got to know You Lord.. what can I tell her? Looking at my own family I really feel like they worship money, what can I do to let them realise that money is nothing? How can i make them realise that all that I haveis from You and all that I am is because of You? Looking at my own cell group.. how do i ask them to stop being a hypocrite and selfish person and start living a life worthy of their calling o God when they dont even bother to listen to what I hve to say? Nobody understands how big Your miracle is in my life. When i try to tell my story, somehow they just dont see that it is Your miracle, instead they see it as something small and normal. Bu…

You are able!

Hey God! I REALLY WANNA SHOUT IT OUT LOUD.. YOU ARE SO AWESOME!! I wanna jump, sing and raise up my hand or if possible I wanna throw a party with You cos i just feel that You just parted my red sea. Hahahhaha... well.. not literally but You just perform a huge miracle in my life. Thank YOU thank You thank You. I love You Jesus!!! more and more every single day. I recently got my reassessment result for my skill nomination. I guess I dont have to tell my result anymore cos the card is already on the table. Wheeeee :) i told my colleague the other day, well not just her but so many others that if I got a positive outcome, it is really God's miracle. Why is it a miracle for me? My initial assessment result was negative and i even applied for an explanation from the officer. The reason that he gave was pretty plain and square. The chance of my reassessment being approved is tiny... i repeat.. tiny... I went to so many other lawyers , some asked for heaps of money without guarantee, o…

Let You be the author

More than a week ago, Holy Spirit convicted me about one room of my life,which key I have been holding on to. That room is my love life room. Honestly I thought that I have given the key to God and let Him take control of everything but the fact is I havent totally given the key to Him. Sometimes I took the key back. That was exactly what happened to me recently. Instead of trusting God, I have compromised in this area of my life. I didnt behave like what my identity is, that is to not be an initiator. I thought I am doing the right thing but Holy Spirit challenged me my motive. That is when I know that I have crossed the line. Today, I want to make the commitment that I want to let God be the author of my love life. No longer will I take initiative or do sth that is according to my flesh. Instead I want to put my trust totally in Him knowing that even though it is hard, even though it is painful, even though nothing will happen, it will be worth it. I am sorry Father for not trusting…