My journey with Christ

The title of this post sounds depressing. I would love to tell you that the process is easy unfortunately it is not. For all who are experiencing breakup right now, whether it is a short term relationship or you guys been together for long time, i know how you feel because this is not my first time , in fact ive been thru several now and none was easy no matter how many times ive been through it. As you all know, i started this blog while i was going thru painful time of moving on from my previous ex and after 5 years i cant believe im back to the same position. It was quite traumatic for me and there was time i was angry at God why He allowed me to go thru this again when He knew it very well how difficult it was for me to move on. Yet who am i to order God for His plan for my life? God has every right to give and take away , which i realised later on. But.. i am going thru this process not alone. As i have shared in previous post that its blessing in disguise, i would say thru thi

Obviously moving on is not easy for anyone , especially myself as i have past history. However i would say this time i find that instead of feeling miserable, i was actually very blessed. For the whole last week, on 3 different occasions God spoke to me thru these verses : So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10 NIV And He also gave me another verse The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.  I will build you up again, and you, Virgin Israel, will be rebuilt. Again you will take up your timbrels and go out to dance with the joyful. Jeremiah : 31: 3-4 Unlike last broke up where i chose to isolate myself and keep everything on my own, this time i chose to share it with the loved ones. I dare myself to be vulnerable  and let them see my weakness and i received so muc

I dislike the fact that i have to share this in my blog because basically history repeats, that is the relationship that i once have, it is time to end it Ive learnt a lot through this relationship. Learn that disobedience has severe consequences. Learn that to tango, it needs effort from both sides. Learn to be more submissive and understanding instead of hard headed and always think that i am right. Learn to cook gluten free , dairy free and fructose free food. Learnt to not easily give up when facing trouble. Learn how to hear from God and make the right decision. Yes , in His will this relationship has to end at this point of time in my life. Am i angry? Am i discontent? Am i disappointed? Yes i was angry at God, thinking why i should go through all this emotion turbulence again when i have built fence around my heart and had a stable life as single. I was discontented because i thought this relationship was going okay yet little do i know that it has cracks here and th