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My favorite chapter - Psalm 27 and Isaiah 60

Psalm 27
The Lord is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
When the wicked advance against me
to devour me,
it is my enemies and my foes
who will stumble and fall. Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then I will be confident. One thing I ask from the Lord,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the Lord
and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
and set me high upon a rock. Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the Lord. Hear my voice when I call, Lord;
be merciful to me and answer me. My heart says of you, "Seek his face!"
Your face, Lord, I will seek. Do not hide y…

There's more to faith?

I often heard people say that being a Christian is so easy, you just need to have faith in God and that's it, you can go to heaven. Most of the times, they take God for granted. In fact, because they think that it's so easy, they would not believe in God. Isnt that strange? People would rather go the hard way and not believe in the Only God and would rather find something else to worship to. Well, I would not blame them because I was in their position. In fact the bible has already clearly stated about the state of unbelievers. 

Isaiah 6: 8- 10:

He said, “Go and tell this people:    “‘Be ever hearing, but never understanding;
   be ever seeing, but never perceiving.’
10 Make the heart of this people calloused;
   make their ears dull
   and close their eyes.[a]
Otherwise they might see with their eyes,
   hear with their ears,
   understand with their hearts,
and turn and be healed.”
In fact, Jesus also quoted this verse , in Matthew 13:
 He replied, “Because the knowledge of the secrets o…

Life's calling

There maybe so many things that I can continue from last post, but I would like to halt that and continue with today's topic. Life's calling.

If you ever wonder why I suddenly want to discuss about this topic, hmm.. the reason is ... that is what I have been thinking about for the past 1 year (if I remember correctly).
I have always thought, how nice it is if I can know my life calling is, so I do not have to wonder around doing something that is none of my business.
Life's calling is the same as the purpose of your life. For example, a microphone is created to amplify sound. If the microphone does not produce any sound, it does not function properly. Thus, the microphone becomes useless. Same as human, we are all created for a purpose. Some people they know their purpose right at the very beginning stage of their life. I have a friend whose talent was shown in music when she was 3. Right away,her parents have been guiding her to pursue further study in music. I always env…

The things that satan tries to snatch away from me

This time I would like to share few things that the satan tries to snatch away from me for the past few weeks.

1. Joy
I guess this is something that the satan will always do in my life. There has been ongoing war inside me lately, one of the most frequent thoughts that bothers me is am I hearing this from myself, from the satan or from God? Sometimes I do not even know anymore whether what I am doing is what God wants me to do or not. For example: in my mind I was thinking, hmm... since I share a room with my sister, sometimes it can be very inconvenient especially when I want to have my quiet time. Maybe I should pray that God will give me own room. 
Straight after that , I heard again : well, you are just giving excuse to get a new room, if you really want to spend time with God, you can always do that early in the morning, like waking up earlier than usual. 
See.. i am confused. Is that the Holy Spirit who is confronting me? or is it my own justification? or is it Satan's condemnat…

The joy and sweat of fundraising xD

Yes.. Fundraising is tiring yet at the end of the day, I can say that I am joyful. Last sunday I had to cook 60 boxes of NASI UDUK for our church fundraising. To be honest, this is my first time doing fundraising by myself and THE FIRST TIME EVER!!! making nasi uduk. hahahhaha... My sis laughs at me, saying that I am so daring, like what if it is not tasty. Honestly, I didnot think about that when I agreed to make nasi uduk. All I thought was that I really really  dont want to miss any week without fundraising and I want to make high-demand-food. It never crosses my mind that making 60 boxes would be so draining, physically and mentally. Thank God,not spiritually. hahah.. My project manager offered help, but I rejected it because I was just too ashamed of the state of my apartment; too messy for people to visit.

So... I started to get worried by wednesday. I started asking here and there about how to make nasi uduk. I even browsed videos uploaded on youtube by some people on how to ma…

Bits and pieces

Okayyy... So here's my update

Firstly, I am still single, Lol. sorry, that was random. Well, actually I dunno what to start cos it has been a long time since I wrote my last blog, (at least that's how I feel). I am very blessed these days to be honest. I keep on experiencing God's goodness in my life and I can say that I have a quite constant devotional time with God compared to last time.

So.. guess what!! It's been 2 months and 1 week since I moved to this new company. I can say that I have been enjoying working there because I feel that time flies ( literally). I start work at either 6 finish at 2 pm or 7 finish at 3. I have been cooking a lot lately too, so most of the time that I have left during the day is for buying groceries and cooking. somehow I obtain personal satisfaction when I cook delicious food (haha, obsession). hmm... I can tell you a little bit about my working environment. I feel like I work in Bombay, u can guess why. Lol. Some of them are good, bu…

Favor of God

Let me tell you a little bit about myself. If you see me as a brave, strong and independent girl, then you are wrong. I appear to be a brave, strong, independent and smart girl, but deep down inside me, I am a very negative person (sadly T.T). I wasnt brought up in a family where every good things that I did was recognized. When I got good marks, or top ranks in my class, my parents never praise me but consider it as a natural thing for me because I am smart. I am always being compared to my siblings because I am the cleverest among all (which is bad, because I give pressure to them, but what can I do? they are typical Asian parents. lol). To cut it short, I never receive any word of encouragement. As a result, I always seek approval and attention from people around me just to receive praises and compliments from them. This has made me become a person who always compare myself to others. I never like myself, or even worse proud of myself. I always see others better than me, I've g…

Life's calling

Continueing from my previous sharing, guess what, I received the hard copy of the contract Langdon on that monday, but then because I was super busy on monday and tuesday, I couldnt get the chance to fill it and send it back. On wednesday, I sent my apology to the HR manager, telling her that I will get the form filled on that day. BUT then, on the afternoon, I got a phone call from the agent  to go for the interview on thursday at DTS( the job that I have been waiting for 5 wks).  I felt so so so distress, when I have already decided that I will go with Langdon, then suddenly the company that I wanted to go to called me. But on the other side, I am glad that I didnot sign the contract earlier because if that's the case, I would have to reject the interview already. I went to the interview today, it was okay, and waiting on the result ( i hope I would get it today or latest tomorrow), so I can decide where I should go. sigh... Life is full of surprises , huh. However,I am not worr…

His goodness ^^

So so so many things to share till i dunno where to start. Firstly, i've got a new job!! Yay. My new company is Langdon ingredients. Such a big company, when i first entered the office, i fell in love with it already. Lol. Honestly i wouldnot consider getting this job is due to my own effort. I still remember clearly that i did not prepare at all bcos i was waiting for another interview from another big company too that is in the city ( near to where i stay, while Langdon is so far away. I have to take half an hour train, 15 mins bus and 30 mins walk). So i have always considered this interview opportunity as my opportunity to practice my interview skill ( since this is my first time to have an interview directly with a company). Then i passed the first interview, which i was very surprised because i dont think i have anything that they want other than willingness to learn, which obviously most people have this kind of attitude. Then i was asked to go to another interview the foll…


Truthfully, honestly, really, this event is a breakthrough in my life. okay, now, what is KERATON? I guess I dont  have to formally introduce to you all what this is, cos you can browse the internet and find out about the true meaning of KERATON. For me personally, KERATON is a celebration for our church anniversary, where we have drama, dance and other performances to illustrate our Indonesian culture. So.. why would I say that this is a breakthrough?

1. We aim for 700 people to come to this event
2. Our first time to celebrate an event outside our church building
3. The first time we have a REAL stage
Isnt that awesome?

What am I involve in?
for the very first time, I am in charge of the fundraising. I do not know how I got to this position. All I know is that, they need someone to help them on raising money.
Also, for the very first time, I am elected as an apprentice (assistant PR). Again, when I first agreed to take this position, I have no idea what the job d…

Struggling to be joyful

Here's an update on what has been happening in my life. Honestly, it has been tough. A lot of things have happened, good and bad things , well, that's life. This time I would like to share about I am experiencing in my workplac
I have been working in this company since Dec 2009. My boss has been so good to me, but starting from early this year, he seems to have changed so much. I do not blame him for his changed attitude. The business just does not run smoothly, he has cash flow problems up to a point where he could not pay our salary for almost a month. I understand that he has so much pressure on him at the moment, but I just could not swallow everything especially at the words that he uses to scold people. He gets angry every now and then, even at the tiniest mistake that I have done. A lot of times, I was scolded for the things that was not even done by me. Even his wife was scolded in front of the co-workers very often. Honestly, everytime when he scolds me, I want to qui…

Not quite what I've expected to be

I am here to tell you bad news =( Well, from what I've shared in my previous post, the result was not quite as what I've projected it to be. I guess God has another plan. The agent told me that they no longer deal with that QA position, which means that I am not fortunate enough to join the company, in order words, dont give up, keep on looking for another position. Guess what, at the same time my boss also told me that we are not going to China at the end of this month. Hmm.. not quite as what I've thought huh. Well, I dont blame God, dissappointed ? a little bit. I can choose to blame God : why is it that even though I can see it but I can have it? However, i dont choose to response it that way, because I believe in God's perfect plan. I believe that when God does not give me the job, He has a better job for me. When God does not give me the chance to go to China, He wants me to do something else. In fact, I feel  relieve because if I am to go to China, how can i tel…

Matthew 6:33 is REAL

Matthew 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Really, trully, seriously, that verse is alive. At least that is what I experienced and I really want to share it here NOW. For the past 2 weeks I have been so busy with church stuff, I am involved in the fundraising for church event, I also involve in the dance, I still usher to manage, prayer ministry every week, oikos for all core team member in church and last but not least my own oikos on every fridays. To cut it short, I really do not have time for myself. When I have spare time, it will either for meeting ( for the church event ) and also GO OUT (which is the class to teach us how to reach out to the lost). I have worked as well! oh Gosh, really, it drains me to the core, I am even busier than the time i had at uni. 

I have been wanting to get a new job, because I have been working at my current workplace for almost 1,5 years and I can say that my growth in that compa…