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He holds my future

Thank you Father!! Thank you my everlasting Father, prince of peace, Almighty God!! Thank you that You have always fulfilled Your promises

Let me tell you how God has guided me all this way for the past 4 years
I started my foundation studies in Trinity College without knowing which major I wanted to study in. All I know is : I love Science and Maths. Half way through my studies there, I decided that I wanna take architecture, so I took 4 major subjects : Psychology, math1, math 2 and environment. However, towards the end of my studies, I changed my mind. I dont think that I really like architecture, but then if I wanna go into Melbourne University, I have to take science subjects : Physics, chemistry or biology, and I have none. Thus, I need to move to other University even though I had enough entry score to Melbourne Uni.

So I went to RMIT University and study engineering becos I cant take science major too and I thought engineering will be the closest major to science. I get to stu…

A farewell

Farewell ... It is something that I do not think anyone will like to think about. Neither do I. Yet in this life, people come and go whether we like it or not.
This week, I have to wish the very best for my brother in Christ, Andi, as he is going back for good. His presence in my life has meant so much even  though I do not realize it in the first place. 
Let me introduce you who Andi is (according to my version) : 1. He is a cell group leader that is always very humble and never be proud of himself even though he leads a cell group. 2. He is someone who is always to the point. He can randomly asks people if they have spent personal time with God or not.  3. He is a person who is always willing to help other people. If you need his help and he will always say yes. 4. He is a person who is very talkactive and this is something that makes him unique. 5. He is a person who never complains about his own problems. He always hold on to the value that he believes in. 6. He cares for others and he ne…

God is good all the time =)

wohoooo!! I cant stop praising our BIG God. He is always good. He knows what His children need even when His children do not ask anything from Him. I just experienced His goodness today as I was going to work. However, before I share about His goodness, I shall share to you all about my current problem.

Since I finished my university (not sure yet if I can graduate or not), I have been working full time in Dandenong. It takes me not less that 3.5 hours to go back and forth. I have to go out from my apartment the latest at 7.08 am because my train leaves at 7.12 am. I usually reach Dandenong station at 8.08 am and have to wait for the bus. It takes around 10 minutes or so to wait for the bus and the journey itself to Monterey Road is approximately 15 minutes, depends on traffic. After that, I need to walk from the bus stop to my office for about 15 to 20 minutes. It has been a pain on the ass for this travel. I havent been complaining about it because I have no other choice other than …

It is not coincident

I cant believe that it's only 2 weeks ago that I updated my blog. It feels as if it's been a month. LOL.
Anyway.....i really really really have to share this
God is good all the time
all the time God is good
God is good all the time
all the time God is good
He is really good!! He's marvelous!! He's awesome!!
Let me share this with you : nothing happens because of coincidence
I can tell you that even now when you are reading this, He has planned it.
Okay, back to the topic I wanna share with you :
So I was quite dry spritually, I dunno why that happened but maybe I was distracted with the worldly stuff, even when I read my devotional books (a woman's walk with God), I felt very discourage and I was not renewed each and every single day anymore, even thou yes I did pray and read His word. Till yesterday, I came to "Pray for Indonesia" night, I was "slapped" by God. The sermon was about hero, loser and betrayer. A loser is someone who you can refer…


It is funny how I choose to write my blog while I am going to have my first exam in a couple of hours. I do not know what pushes me to write this blog, but I just feel like writing, I wanna share my joy, unending joy that comes from God.

For the past 2 weeks, somehow I feel empty, feel a little bit dissatisfied with myself. I did read the word, did pray, but somehow, I felt that God is far far away from me and I couldnt neither concentrate on my quiet time nor on my prayers. I thought : there must be something wrong with me. Indeed yes,there was no joy in my heart, even though yes I waas active in my ministry in church. I realise that I have been too busy with my own stuff that I forgot the essence of listening to God : sitting in front of Him and just listen to Him. When I prayed, I just babbled out all my worries, problems and the wants to Him, I forgot to slow down and listened to what He wanted to tell me. As the result, there was communication break down between me and God, and t…


Hebrews 11: 8-9
By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.9By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise.10For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God

Hebrews 11: 13-16
All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. 14People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a c…

My Dream ^^

I have been thinking a lot lately. Heaps of things went into my mind, starting from relationship, future, passion and my dream. I have come into few conclusions :

1. life isnt all about relationship. It's not only about finding a partner, get married, bear children, old and died. It's got more than that.
2. I have planned what to do for my future (and i hope it's in accordance with God's plan). They are :
- I will work monday to friday, after I finish my work I will go to dance classes, and do home chores.
-Saturday will be a time for me to volunteer. I want to do any kind of volunteering, starting from taking care of old people, teaching refugees or even planting trees.
-if i get the chance, when Im taking my yearly holiday , I want to join missionaries, reaching for the unfortunate people or unreached people. =)
- Sunday, I will give myself a break, probably go out with church friends and catch up with friends.
3. In the future, i would like to open an orphanage, sch…

what faith can do

Everybody falls sometimes
You gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think its more than you can take
But youre stronger, stronger than you know

And dont you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

Ive seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesnt ever end
Even when the sky is falling
Ive seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
Thats what faith can do

It doesnt matter what youve heard
Impossible is not a word
Its just a reason for someone not to try
Everybodys scared to death
You may decide to take that step
Out on the water
But itll be all right

Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

Overcome the odds
When you dont have a chance
(Thats what faith can do)
When the world says you cant
It will tell you that …

Random =)

just as the title says, R.A.N.D.O.M, this is what im gonna share, lol cos i just feel like filling up my diary with Mr.Christ. So... anyway,while I was about to have my shower, a thought suddenly came into my mind, which is I should appreciate every single person that appears in my life. when I say every single person, I mean it. When I think about it again, God thinks when He plans, and He plans for us, and His plan is the best, and the people in our life have already been planned as well, which means that they appear in our life for our good, no matter what our circumstances is. Whether maybe some of them hurt us or maybe they are just by-passers. When I think about this, I just realise, how stupid I am to sometimes dislike people, even worse, the people that I dislike are my brothers and sisters in Christ, shouldnt I be grateful that I happen to meet them in this life? A storm will eventually recede, same as our problems, so why sometimes we are so dumb or fool that we put our prob…

Seventy times seven

Hi guys, I just updated my blog yesterday and yet today I create a new post again. You must have been thinking that I dont have anything to do at the moment. In fact, I have heaps of tasks to finish up. But I need to update my blog because it is just awesome to see how God shapes my life.

So here we go : this afternoon, I had a "big fight" with my church members, oh well, cant say if it's a fight but just arguments. But what made me so disappointed is that , the church members that I had an argument with were the people from my cell group, my DEAR CELL GROUP and they are people that I really treat as my family. So.. we had an argument about fundraising, I was giving my idea about what we can do, and even the idea that I gave was from another big church. guess what, they rejected it without even thinking about it. If they rejected it in a polite manner, I wouldnt mind, but this is so different. Even then, what makes me even more angry is when other people gave their opini…

Learning to have self-control

I learn this topic "A choice not to do it" during my devotional time this morning, and I find that it is really important, especially for me, to have self-control.

J.Oswald Sanders said  :" It has been well said that the future is with the disciplined, and that quality has been placed first in our list, for without it the other gifts, however great, will never reach their maximum potential. Only the disciplined person will rise to his highest powers. He is able to lead because he has conquered himself".

Galatians 5 :22 -23 says " the fruit of the Spirit is ... self-control"

It mentioned about the fruit of the spirit : love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness and gentleness. we can love, we can feel joy and peace, but God's self- control helps us to live like that. this also applies to the other fruits of the spirit that are mentioned above.

I often forget about this topic, self-control, and when I read this devotional, I just reali…

A woman who is walking with God by His Spirit

She follows through... on whatever she has to do
She comes through... no matter what
She delivers the goods... whether a returned item or a school paper
She shows up... even early so others wont worry
She keeps her word... her yes means yes and her no means no (James 5:12)
She keeps her commitments and appointments... you wont find her canceling
She successfully transacts business... carrying out any instructions given to her
She is regular at church... and doesnt neglect worship
She is devoted to duty... just as Jesus was when He came to do His Father's will (John 4:34)

I want to learn to be the woman mentioned above =)

A total surrender

I am extremely sad at the moment, so sad. I just received my mid term test result for one of my subjects and I failed it and it's 35%. I feel so dumb, I feel so hopeless and disappointed in myself. I cant even think properly, whether it's me who didnt study enough or some other reason. Whatever reason it is, Im just sad, I cant believe I could fail my test. I failed once earlier on 1 of my music reports, and now this. Gosh.. It's draining me.. Im emotionally drained. I feel that I disappoint my parents so much, they must have put so much hope on me and yet I disappoint them in this way. I feel so ashamed.

God, I surrender to You, Lord. Help me to believe that everything happens for the good. Help me to see what's Your plan ahead of me cos im starting to feel tired. Im starting to feel helpless. I need to drink from the water of life that You can give, Father. Help me to depend on You and work harder on my assignments.

I am blessed =))))

I keep smiling today!! I feel I am so blessed. Okay, i know i know, u want to know what makes me feel blessed. Here it is :

I woke up in the middle of the night at 4 am today. Usually I can straight away get back to sleep but I dont know why this time I couldnt. I was worried cos I slept at 11+ and I had to wake up at 5.30 to prepare for work, and if I didnot have enough sleep, I could turn into a zombie in my workplace (well, not literally).
So then I was even more shocked when I read my friend's bbm for me telling me that the concert report mark is up. She failed, my heart pumped so fast cos both of us failed on the previous assgnment, and in order to pass this subject, we need to get average mark for 3 reports. then I quickly browsed open my portal to check my result. Guess what, God blessed me so much , He gave me 73% while last time I only got 49%. I feel so guilty, cos I just realise how I sometimes take God for granted. I thank Him so badly and I just cant stop thanking Him…

Lead a healthy and happy life

I know it sounds so 'old', be healthy and u'll be happy, but I trust it. and guess what, I am health concious more than ever, not because I want to look pretty or I want to look good but simply I want to take care of this body of mine, that is the temple of God, where the Holy Spirit dwell in it. God has given me this body, which also means that 1 day He will ask me, "what have you done with the body that I gave you?", well, I want by the time I can tell Him " Father, you know what, I eat healthy food, I exercise, I use this body to glorify your name", rather than regretting and say " I m sorry God, because of my temptation to eat ROAST PORK, and I ended up becoming sluggish, not able to do anything for you". See what I mean, It makes a BIG difference.

And when I say PORK, I dun simply say any meat that I want, God actually make a list of food that is recommended and not recommended, which you can find in LEVETICUS 11 : 1-47. I can remember th…

Let go, Let God

I cant stop blogging.. cos u know what? God keeps on blessing me and I just cant not write it down and remember it for my whole life. lol

and the blessing iss..... again He reminds me about His purpose in my life
I always wake up around 4am in the morning, cos I need to go to toilet *oops*, drink too
then everytime after toilet, i will check my phone for any msgs

This morning, as usual when i woke up, i received an email from Tina (one of the youth leader), she sent an email with subject "learn to let go". I was intrique to read (although the email was super long).

So it said this:
one day there is one old man who is about to hop on to the bus, when he just stepped on the bus, one of his shoes dropped off and fell to the road. then the door closed, and the bus started to depart, so he couldnt get his shoe. the old man did not feel anxious, but what he then did was putting off his other shoe and threw it from the window.
a young man who was in the bus saw it and aske…

An instant answer from God

Do you guys believe that our God is an awesome God? I do. Guess what, I experienced Him once again last night.
I was so sad, extremely sad cos I quarreled with him again, I just feel like why is it so hard to talk to him as a friend? as a brother in Christ? everytime I talked to him after we broke up, we always ended up with fights. I am so tired of it, till I told him that I want him to stop contacting me, including calls, email or sms. I just wanna forget about him (I even convince myself that he has died in order for me to stop wanting to get back to him).
so.. yesterday night, again, I cried alone in my room. My heart ached so much that I screamed for help to God. Deep in my heart I can feel that God is sad for me too. Then suddenly I felt the urge of reading people's testimony about Christ. I just searched through google and type "testimony Christ". I clicked on the first website that came out on the list. I read through the titles and subtitles ( I searched from my…

Calming my heart

I want to thank God because He reminds me about the woman in proverbs 31.

30 minutes ago, I was so in distress. I am struggling on applying for permanent residency as I am going to graduate soon, so I search through the websites. there are so many things that I do not understand. I started to panicked and I dunno what to do. Then at the same time, "he" called me. I told him that I was under stress, then he shared a little bit about the sermon he listened to this morning. We just talked for 5 minutes and he said that he has to do his stuff. At that time, I was still stressing and need talk to someone, so I asked him to talk to me, but he wouldnt. I feel so angry, this time I just asked him as a friend, not expecting something, but he refused me while he could do other stuff during his spare time and not talking to me. I just feel that I am not being respected even as a friend. He has changed , he used to be able to talk to me whenever I need him, but now everything is differe…

no more cry

I promise that today will be d last day I cry for him,  will be the last time I cry for our past, it's too painful and I dont want this scar remains in my heart.

I just want to be free.. free from sadness, tears, stress, disappointment, anger.. I want to live my life like before. I want to be happy and live for God. I want to focus on my study and God.

I havent been able to study well for the past 1 month, whenever I study, I feel so lonely and I ended up chatting with friends and in d end, my studies were not done.

I have to change. yes, I have to. I dun wanna cry for this anymore
Sheila, be strong, cos God cares for you

why I need to be thankful

yes, like what the title says : Why I need to be thankful, I guess this is what I need to think more often in my life.  A while ago, I chatted with my friend, asking him what I need to do because I feel that I am caught in the past. I cant move on, I cant let go of my past. It keeps on haunting me, my heart keeps on asking me to wish that I could go back to the time where I can be with him again, where I can create more sweet memories together. At the same time, I know that God is telling me that I need to let go, I cant live like this, I cant dwell on the past. Well, as the result, I felt very frustrated, not knowing if I can get out of this circle.

He told me to pray. I said "but I have", and he said "more and more, everytime when you think about him, ask God to help you, pray". Again, I told him that I have prayed till I have run out of words. He asked me " do you know how to pray in tongue? " and yes, I know, but, I cant always do that. I tried, but i…

A woman after His heart

Sally, my dear sister in Christ, who has helped me a lot during my Christian life and gave me very helpful advice too, tagged me in her note and i just feel that I want to share this with you all. Putting this into my blog also allows me to reflect back to it when 1 day I am astray or not sure about what to do.
It's a bit long, but worth reading. Here it is :

Dear my amazing ladies,

A friend of mine sent me a beautiful article about being a wonderful woman in His eyes. I thought I somewhat wrote a note about this before, but I just realised that it has vanished... :( I feel that some of you might have known all about this but hey, we can never stop learning about anything. In fact, God's words are never ending, let's just read this with all our humble hearts. I am personally blessed with this.

As you all know, every generation has its righteous women and its rotten women. Every generation has its wonderful wives and its worthless wives. Every generation has its ma…

Life's been tough

yea.. like what the title says "life's been tough", that is what I am experiencing at the moment.
Again, God reminds me through dream that I need to share about my experience with Him to my family so that they can be saved. This is serious because Satan can easily disturb my family and He has been doing that to my family and my neighbours in Medan indeed. Out of 20+ households, 10 households have at least 1 family member died from cancer in the past 10 years. I believe that it is not by coincidence but it is indeed the Satan who walks into their lives and seizes them.
I have started to pray a lot for my family cos I dont want the same thing happen to my family whereby I lost someone that I love so much in this world from the terrible disease.
At the same time, me myself has been facing a real problem, idleness in study. I admit I have not got any motivation to study and this is my last semester, I need to graduate with more than satisfactory results. However, what I see …

A reminder from God

it is just amazing to see how God works in my life. Again, God has made it so clearly whenever He wants to show to me that it is from Him. Remember I told earlier that God told me to approach my family and share with them about my experience? I have to admit that I havent done that. This is merely because my family has been so conservative that I do not know how to initiate and talk to them like friends or talk heart to heart. Moreover, I can imagine that it must be so AWKWARD to say 'i love you' or hug them. I know that I should improve on this, it's just that I dunno how to start. the first step is always hard. I prayed for it before, asking God about what I should do. But really what I am doing is I really focus more on my friends, cell group people rather than my own family (which is bad, I know).

So.. again, yesterday's night cell group topic is about family. When Rosemary was sharing it to the group, I did not feel anything, I did not feel that God is talking to …


Feel like writing my thoughts, my feeling, my happiness and my sadness..
Today has been a great day. I was praised by my boss at work, although I dont feel that I am that good. I did not do anything much, but 1 thing that I do is I work with my heart, as what God has commanded us, that we have to obey our masters. And so there was a guy coming to calibrate the analyser and I was watching him and asking a few questions only for the whole morning. He told my boss that I am a smart girl and he praises me, which my boss said that it was very rare for the guy to praise anyone. I feel happy, I mean I dont expect anyone to praise me at work, because I feel that I work for God and it's my obligations. That's why it's a plus for me when someone praises me. Praise The Lord, He always knows how to make me happy =)

Later today I visited my friend at kfc. I didnot intend to go at first because honestly, my relationship with her has not been good for the past 2 months. However, I still …

Little thoughts about my cell group

I love my cell group. I didnot love it few weeks ago but now I love it. We call it WWJD 1 (Walk With Jesus Daily). This is the place where I can see myself grow a lot, from a shy girl to a girl who can lead worship and even share in a public, and of course, it is all by God's grace that I am able to do that.

Our cell group has just established for 2 months. We are still new, the bonding between each other is still not as strong as when we were in the big group. That is why there are several problems that we are facing now :
1. One of the old members is thinking about moving oikos (I am so sad about this, because indeed, he is someone who can bring joy to our cell group)
2. We can see that most of the people havent grown yet in Jesus.
3. We still need to improve our bond.
4. To reach out to more people.

I just had discussion with my core team group and the cell leader this afternoon. We are all thinking hard about what we need to improve on. However, the good news is.. all of us ha…

Another experience with God

Yes.. must be wondering, what have I been doing for the whole day? guess what, i attended to sermon, 1 in the morning (which I shared earlier), and 1 at night. It was a really good testimony from Pastor Diana, although the message does not directly relate to me. However, I know that 1 day, I can share what I heard and save people. Indeed, I am sharing with you now. =)

the title of the sermon was Overcoming the Enemy. in this context, it refers to spirit of pornography, adultery, etc. I was just amazed how God can set free Pastor Diana from pornography after she went away from God for 5 years. and she went on saying " When the devil reminds you of your past, remind him of his future". you can refer more to the bible about the Devil in Revelation 20:21.

I believe that tonight a lot of people are set free. No longer living as devil's slave but devil has become our slave. Amen. It is a bit sad that I couldnot attend 3 sessions tomorrow because I have my own duty, but... I ha…

a woman of God

I feel that I just need to remind myself :
Proverbs 31:30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
       but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
I need to stop comparing myself with others
I need to FEAR the Lord, respect Him and honor Him
I know that when I do these, I will explain the most exciting, most fulfilling relationship in life.

first time being prophesised

Prophecy!! how wonderful it is, yet, I have just encountered this by my friend who shared to me about him being prophecied and Im thinking, I want to be prophesised too!! I want to know how my future will be like(of course it's gonna be amazing, but Im still curious to know, how it's gonna be).

So... here I am, at my 21st, still wondering about my passion. I am studying Food Science and will be graduating soon, but... I just realise, I am not really into it. I dont want to stuck in food industry for the rest of my life. I want to do something big, something that can change people and can bring more and more people to God.

So currently, I have a dilemma about what I should do in the future, I have been praying for the past few months, but more frequently for the past 1 week. and just yesterday, my friend (who shared about prophecy with me), told me that there's one pastor ( Diana Frost) who came from California to their church to share about her life experience, and she has…

my first time blogging

To all who read this blog, I pray that as you read, you will get encouragement from God and be blessed. The reason I create this blog is because I want to share with you the blessing that I got from God. I know that I cant just keep it for myself but to share to others and bless them. I am so excited to share my journey with Christ! I pray too that as you read, God will open up your heart and transform you inside out.God bless you!! Happy Saturday