My journey with Christ

Another goodbye..another cry... another till we meet again. Tina is such a great woman of God. She is one of the few girls that i admire in my life. It is also through Tina that i actually feel God's love for me. I met Tina about 5 years ago when I first went to my church. I still remember vividly where and how i met her. It was on a combined oikos and she was sitting next to me. I havent even known her yet but she was already friendly with me. And up till today i never see her mad or angry with anyone and that is a character that i really want to be able to have. Since then whenever i went to oikos, i will always talk to her and we became good friends. She is such an inspiration to me. She never gossips, never talk bad about people, always so positive towards everyone she meets. She is never judgemental nor sensitive. She will put others need above herself. She will do her best not to make others feel burden. She loves her family and church so much. She is genuine and hardworkin...

Do you know what Joseph's story is like? If not, go and read Gen 39 to 45 haha. I will summarise it for you though Joseph was born as the favorite child of Jacob because he was Rachel's son and Rachel is Jacob's favorite wife. Joseph was spoiled since he was young, he was given a very nice and exclusive robe by his father which his brothers didnt get. From there, his brothers started to get jealous of him. The peak was when he told them about the dreams that he got, that he was going to be the leader of the family and his brothers will bow down to him. Of course whoever heard it will be unhappy to know that, moreover this is his brothers who were jealous of him. So his brothers plot to kill him. But thanks to Reuben and Judah, he was spared and instead he was sold to Egyptian as slave. Not a very nice ending but he was alive. He was sold into Potiphar's household. GOD was always with him in whatever he did so he prospered, and Potiphar saw that. So he put Joseph in ...

Yes..how I wish the bullying that i have been sharing end there or as soon as possible.. But looks like it is getting worse and worse up to the point that yesterday i couldnt resist my tearing. I have no idea what i have done wrong to them but they are always scheming something evil towards me. They exaggerated simple things and make it big then will tell everyone that I am not doing my job and I am slacking. Well honestly for the past few days i have been having late lunch because i was just that busy with work. They reported me to one of the department head that i am being my own boss doing what i like that the supervisor actually came talk to me sinistically and looking down at me. It hurts. All the time i keep quiet bcos i know no matter what i say or how i defend myself, she wont Budge. That supervisor emailed to my manager who is on holiday and complained about me and those bunch of people who did bad to me also did the same. How i know it? Bcos my manager emailed me. I was thi...

Psalm 5 8 Lord, I have many enemies. Lead me in your right path. Make your way smooth and straight for me. 9 Not a word from their mouths can be trusted. Their hearts are filled with plans to destroy others. Their throats are like open graves. With their tongues they tell lies. 10 God, show that they are guilty. Let their evil plans bring them down. Send them away because of their many sins. They have refused to obey you. 11 But let all those who go to you for safety be glad. Let them always sing with joy. Spread your cover over them and keep them safe. Then those who love you will be glad because of you. 12 Lord, you bless those who do what is right. Like a shield, your loving care keeps them safe. My enemies are many, unfortunately I have to spend 40 hours a week with them. These enemies are exactly like what is decribed in the verse above and I really want to pray the same prayer as verse 10. But it isnt right. God is surely in control and H...

Have you ever wrestled with God? Do you know what it mean to wrestle with Him? I never really thought about it too until i came across a weird passage during BSF. In Genesis 32,  a man appear to Jacob and wrestled with him until daybreak. If you read the passage carefully, you will soon find out that the man is actually God himself in human form. Perhaps Jesus? Not sure, but the point is why would God wrestle with Jacob? What is the point if we know for sure God will win? Whats even more interesting is here we see that Jacob won the fight. Okay lets rewind a little bit. What was the situation? Jacob was in distress because he heard that Esau was coming after him with 400 men. He was that panicked that he actually planned to divide his possesions and family into 2 troops hoping that if he has to sacrifice, at least he wont lose both. All his life Jacob has been depending on his own strength in doing everything. God gave him great talent skill and brain. He deceived his father tha...

Following on my post on human nature, im going to share here about what happened just a few days ago. I was bullied again. Well at least thats what i thought. The same group of colleague who has some grudges towards me actually told my manager that i have some attitude problem. Which was very shocking bcos honestly if i was even angry at them, they will be as good as dead ( im exaggerating here) but the point is they were twisting stories after a series of things happened at work. It really got me into my nerve on that day and honestly i was so so so pissed. In one corner of my heart, God is speaking to me a few things which i really2 want to ignore up till now 1. Forgive them 2. Love them 3. Do not attack them but leave it to God 4. Ignore it, keep quiet and go back to point number 1 again I know that very clearly by heart as i was still angry but tried so hard to brush it off. At the same time trying to calm myself down and just keep quiet until one of the other colleagues ask...

It really gets me into my nerves when i found out today that im being backstabbed from behind. Well its not literally backstab but similar. I will explain haha So... The employment status at my workplace isnot very good now. They are extending people's contract beCause they just dont have the fund to employ people. They are in debt. This means that about 50% of the workers will be affected. This includes me. Everyone is panicking. This has been happening since july and slowly we can see people left one by one. Am i panicking? O hell yea initially! haha but dunno why after 2 days of hearing the news i am no longer worrying about it.  i am okay bcos i know that God has everything under control. As simple as that. Believe it or not. Worst come to worst i just have to find a new job and i know God will sustain me So at work people have been talking about it,gossiping, telling each other about their worries up to the point that they actually neglect their work. In my mind, if they k...