no more cry

I promise that today will be d last day I cry for him,  will be the last time I cry for our past, it's too painful and I dont want this scar remains in my heart.

I just want to be free.. free from sadness, tears, stress, disappointment, anger.. I want to live my life like before. I want to be happy and live for God. I want to focus on my study and God.

I havent been able to study well for the past 1 month, whenever I study, I feel so lonely and I ended up chatting with friends and in d end, my studies were not done.

I have to change. yes, I have to. I dun wanna cry for this anymore
Sheila, be strong, cos God cares for you

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